I LOVE MAHJONG!!!! love love love mahjong.

Lol.. Okay, according to bird, i very long never blog already so i'm gonna blog today!! *yipee* Life hasn't been good lately anyway. Went for physics bridging lesson today and the lecturer totally sucks la. If i hadn't read up on that topic beforehand, and (with the help of bird) did part of the tutorial, i wouldn't know WHAT THE HECK the lecturer is saying la. For once, i though maybe TAN BAK SENG is not bad after all. *if even tan bak seng is not bad ar, den u shld noe exactly how pathetic the lecturer is la*

After lecture NOBODY wanna go play mahjong la!! Haha.. Not their fault la, cuz they had to celebrate Alicia's birthday *happy b'dae dear LES* and i CAN'T go cuz my mum is angry with mi for lord knows what reason. *dang* haha. Anyway, i end up having nothing to do, no program lined up, no mahjong session, nobody to go out with. How pathetic ya? Lol. No la.. Went northpoint with bird and we ate LONG JOHN. Bird definitely does not eat like a bird. She eats normally, of course.

Anyway, i decided to go for a jog since there's so so much on my mind lately. I think i'm crazy la, cuz i just ate long john like 30mins ago and 30 mins later i'm joggin. Lol.. Furthermore i left my normal jogging route to 'recce' a new jogging route and i ended up jogging to some hougang place. It felt so horrible la, i can like feel the food swisshing around in my stomach and i began to feel faint and had pain in my tummy. *gosh, that was the worse experience ever* Ended up puking into the drain la. EWWWWW, it's like u see the partially digested long john silver's combo 1 all spilled out on the drain. Okay, i shall not describe any further, but NO WAY, no way am i touching long john again. Haha.

Jogging clears up my head i guess. It forces mi to think about my problems in life cuz i have nothing better to think about. And then i realise, maybe i am wrong. Perhaps all along he is right, but being SIMIN, i am too stubborn to acknowledge it. Am i doing the right thing? It's almost like throwing away a friend because i'm too stubborn to acknowledge that i am wrong.

I DUNNO LA, i feel torned apart man. Somehow i, myself, am not certain of my life. What happened to the SIMIN who is always in control? Always cheerful, always sure that whatever she does, she will not regret. Where did that confident gal go? Aiya, i tink i lost my soul after coming to YJC. Haha. One of these days, i'm gonna go back to church juz to make sure that the devil has not stolen it.

I feel drained, emotionally, physcially and mentally. But at least now i've cleared my head. Yeah! No more confusion. From today on, i shall live life to the fullest =)) *jogging totally rawks!*

If God ever grants ma a wish,

i'll ask for mi to vanish.. ..

Wiped off from the face of the Earth,

sparing you from the pain caused by love.

I TOTALLY LOVE MAHJONG!